Learning sometimes gets you down

So today was a little hard.  I have been feeling a little lonely up here.  I don't really know why, but it just kinda feels like everyone here has a great friend, and I don't really have anyone.  Everyone keeps saying that we have so much unity, but I have just been having trouble feeling it.  Well tonight really helped that out.  We had a staff prayer time, which was amazing, just to see people share things that are SO hard, and here I am complaining that I'm not the center of attention-that was more than a little humbling, gotta be honest.  Then we all went to the quad and hung out.  On the way there I was able to talk to Anna, who I miss SOO much, and just share with her what is going on, and cry a little, which for some reason always makes it a little easier.  I also got to hear what is on, and be there for her.  I love that girl ;-)  Talking to her helped me realize that there is nothing wrong with me, (except(according to dave) that I am a little socially awkward;-D) and that I am not here to make friends.  I hope that that is one thing I gain, but I am here to serve God by serving teenagers, and loving them.  This camp is NOT for me, so I need to kill the pity party I am having and just serve God.  I like that I am learning alot though...its kinda cool ;-)

And in other news, today I was sitting at lunch with some middle school guys who I had had breakfast with, and btw they are helping to solidify my feeling that I will be working with middle schoolers for the rest of my life, and one of them goes-I feel the need to remind you they are boys-"I wish you were our councilor (i.e. I lived on their floor and shared a bathroom and other gross things)" and it was very very funny :-) 

So thats what I have learned so far, and its only tuesday

Keep the prayers going, they are incredibly appreciated-three in particular-One staffers brother lost his job...one staffer has broken her foot, sprained her ankle and torn some ligaments, which is a big deal for someone who does NOT like to sit down, or stop going, and a third staffer is going to get some blood work done this weekend for a preexisting condition that is giving her trouble...just keep us all in your prayers this week :-)